Anonymous asked: You're pretentious. Seriously sweetheart, you don't really ever do anything that deserves merit or even credit. There's no way that you just write because it looks like you try very hard to come off as intelligent. You are a pseudo intellectual and it upsets me to no end.

Clearly you know me well enough to know I do absolutely nil worth any merit, so I won’t begin to argue- for you must know better. However don’t fret, let me take the heavy burden of self righteous bigotry off your shoulders and ease your mind by telling you that- hello, I don’t care what you think. Your opinion from the moment of it being anonymous is taken at face value and thus, not taken seriously at all. My head isn’t heavy with whatever the likes of you have floating around in their empty heads. I’m well aware of the extent of my intellectual know-how, and fortunately this repertoire of useless book facts are backed by real life knowledge that serve my immediate purposes of surviving in life. Get to know me, don’t assume so much. As far as pretentious goes….hah. Yeah, cause it’s just out of this world that anyone actually take pleasure in writing. Retract your statement because you sound ignorant with no means nor end. “You don’t just write to write,” no. I don’t sit down and write useless babbleshit all night, nor do I need you to deem their worth or importance.

Thank you though, I’m sure this will keep me awake for weeks :(

Anonymous asked: What's your preferred writing style/ are you writing anything now?

Free style/narrative. I don’t write in the conventional
-Introduction
-Plot
-End
Kind of way. I just write. I use a lot of detail and sensory words because my immediate focus is not the length, but the content of what I’m writing. I want the reader to shut their eyes and see the image through my words. I’m also an artist. The reader’s mind is the canvas and my medium of work is written word, used to paint an image in their mind.

As of now I have a whole bunch of stories written. Lately I’ve been writing letters. Some I send, most I keep. They do have recipients but it’s mostly just for myself. The idea is that the recipient will get them at some point in the future, but writing captures feelings and days and moods and serve as little time capsules. I also write these letters as if I were talking to the recipient in person, only I’m writing what I don’t have the valor to say in person. Usually because I’m such a hopeless romantic of Neruda proportions that I make myself blush and am too cowardly to let anyone else read.

How would you feel if someone wrote down even the slightest detail about you? The way you tap your toe, or bounce your leg while you sit on the ball of your feet. Your slanted posture or brilliant shade of pink your lips might turn when you get flustered? Weird, right?

Anonymous asked: you seem very emotionally dependent on whoever your love interest is

Hah. Uh, hm. I was when I first developed an interest in him. But I was fifteen then. At the time I was just a complete mess of an individual. Honestly how he even had an interest in me then is beyond me. I was codependent not only on him, but my friends as well. I was struggling to keep a hold on a crumbling family by clinging to anyone I had around.
Now, no. Not to any abnormal degree. I can do my own thing while he does his, and I don’t need constant reassurance of anything, you know? I think it’s normal to miss someone you love when you aren’t with them. And what’s more, he’s also my best friend who I tell everything to and I’m absolutely attached, that much is true. But now my mindset is much different and independent from anyone now, and I can really stand on my own. But I do need him in my life, so much.

Anonymous asked: How do you feel about your body image? Has that contributed to your new positive views?

Body image is not a primordial thing for me anymore. I’m very satisfied with my appearance, and when I’m not I strive to change it. But absolutely, feeling positive about how I look radically changed my over all mood for the better. More confidence, you know? It does wonders for you.

Anonymous asked: Are you still depressed or has that gotten better for you? I can't tell...you seem happier sometimes but others not so much.

I’m not depressed anymore. If I’m contrasting it with how things were for me a few months back, I’m much better. I’m working, I have plans to change my living situation, focused on moving forward with my life. I’m not exempt from occasional periods of general sadness, but those aren’t too often.
The Internet is a medium I use to vent and transfer all my negative thoughts. It’s important for me when I’m dealing with a bad situation or event or handling anything negative. I’m a writer, so I write. I write whatever comes to mind and it helps because I do feel better afterwards. In person I’m very outgoing, fun to be around, charismatic. I bottle up my negative emotions and save them up until I write them out or make jokes out of them. It’s how I cope. But definitely much better.